Tuesday, August 31, 2010

my mind

please tell me this happens to you. i get these ideas. and then my mind runs away with them and creates a porthole to another realm where these ideas are realities. i can see them and smell them and live them. i dream them.  any idea at all.  life dream ideas. imagining the future ideas.  ideas about things that terrify me. ideas about things i need to try, to bake, to do, to build, to visit.  my mind has an amazing capacity to create reality just by thinking about it.  sometimes implementing those ideas takes a lot more energy than i anticipated. sometimes its because i'm scared to try those things.  buts its all over the place.  my thoughts and my mind these days seem scattered equally divided thrice between a) the here and now, b) my husband and c) the future (of all things great and small it seems).  i am all over the place. dreaming about homecoming. designing up a new furniture layout of the living room. creating projects to do with pete. whipping up a delicious meal. crafting a few christmas gifts. completing my marathon. taking pete to his first day of school someday. baby number 3 (yes, i know #2 is only 4 months old but i do think about the next one already). halloween costumes.  needing to put laundry in the wash asap. my grandma's visit. renting out our FL condo. potty training. betsy's 4 month shots coming up. buying birthday presents for our friends. hubby's next job (and next deployment. ugh). christmas and the traditions and memories i want to create with my family this year. the baseball game i'm going to this weekend.  i mean, its all over the place.  my dreams are even whackier but i only share those with reid for fear of being ridiculed and judged. my dreams are an...interesting place.

so i'm just wondering. do you catch your mind wandering ALL over the place? its not that i'm unable to focus or function, its just that my mind is on so many varying things.

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