breathing

i'm feeling a bit overwhelmed with good feelings right now. for perhaps (no, definitely!) the first time since....fifth grade.....i have time. time to fill with the right things when i wake up, and each day those right things we fill the day with can be different. on a whim.
time to spend focusing on the right people right there in the moment.
sure there are things on the horizon, a big long to-do list, stuff i stress about and things that make me groan thinking about getting to....but there's time for it all now. i'm not bouncing between things and events and obligations and schedules and guilt. i'm going and doing and breathing and smiling while i'm at it. i'm loving having time to let petey sleep when he needs to sleep. and to spend extra time letting him tickle the blowing curtains with his fingertips in awe. time to watch him smile as he discovers more of our world. and time to do things like swim class with him and yoga by myself (this sunday I hope!)-time to play footsies and look at the sunset together. time to make plans and dream my dreams again, and time to maybe make some of those dreams happen again! it just feels good and right and certainly something i needed. its here in my lap and i'm so very grateful for it. for a moment. to breathe. to smile. to live.